After speaking in the Discord and people seemed interested, I thought I’d write up my experiences as a bad sufferer of Needle phobia getting a NeXT and HF Led installed In L0.
The idea of blood tests and such, make me feel weak, even typing this gives me a bit of a low feeling.
I’ve collapsed being in the same room as it being done, no idea why, it’s not painful. I know it’s fine etc, my body just full on kernel panics.
BUT, for some reason the idea of a larger needle does not instil the same uncontrollable reaction
After about 2 years of research, I finally decided fuck it and bought them from Ksec and booked an appointment all in under a week so I didn’t over think it and give myself a choice to back out.
I booked the install at Interskin Studios,
And I couldn’t have wished for it to go any better.
I didn’t see any results when searching for them here, but saw they were an official Ksec location and not too far away.
They definitely deserve some love. <3
Extremely helpful answering a few questions I had, friendly and completely understanding of my phobia. Making me feel well looked after and relaxed from the moment I entered to the moment I left.
After reading up on some threads, watching plenty of install videos and seeing a few comments by Amal on how people deal with the Vasovagal Syncope.
I made sure I had a bunch to drink and had a sports drink with plenty of electrolytes and some sugary sweets before hand.
I opted for freeze spray which numbed my hand entirely with a dull ache, the install was done whilst we chatted and I had my head pointed as far away as possible
I barely noticed other than the tiniest pressure point, getting a hair snagged in some clothing as you move about is far more than what I felt.
I knew it was likely being done but carried on talking, after about 20 or so seconds I started to feel distant and the typical low energy, drowsy feeling.
Clenching your muscles helps to stop the sudden BP drop, but I felt myself going so had to announce it.
I woke up, sweaty, drowsy and slowly rebooting and I couldn’t talk for a bit until speech.exe loaded…
Oh thank god, because the first thing I thought as I woke up was that I’d have to prepare myself for the second one.
I had passed out a good bit after it was all over and it was being cleaned up to stop the bleeding… Hadn’t even noticed lol
10 seconds to install, 10 minutes to recover
Managed to scan and write data to the NFC side of the NeXT through the plaster straight away, brilliant!
The Day after I changed my plaster over for a smaller one and bumped the tender bruise slightly, felt faint, woozy and passed out. S I G H
The only explanation I have Is that the internal bruise type feeling is associated with an injection/needle and my body panicked, been fine since.
I’ve been overly cautious in ensuring they healed in the position they were installed in as they were perfectly parallel and spaced a good 8/10mm apart
I’m 2 weeks in now, with a slight tinted bruise across the back of my hand and the occasional tender feeling.
Slowly starting to use my hand properly more and more.
I keep looking at it and thinking, surely If I can get this done I can get a blood test etc
Hopefully I can psych myself out of this uncontrollable reaction.
Either way I’d totally do it again,
Logic doesn’t come into play for a phobia, but to anyone else that is maybe thinking about it, Do it.
One of us, one of us, one of us
I’m even contemplating the big custom needle for flex installs… maybe…
And of course the obligatory Blinky show off (3 days after install)
Hopefully this might help someone else that’s contemplating it!