Started taking Wellbutrin again and forgot it gives me horrid anxiety for the first few weeksā¦ so Iām sitting here worrying about my new implant for no reason. Health anxiety is of course my preferred flavor. Real nice bouquet on that.
So like my dumbass intrusive thoughts are inventing situations out of nothing and taking my normal everyday pain to try to make me panicky.
All the while Iām cognizant enough to try to tell it āNo it probably isnāt rubbing on the blood vessel and making a huge blood clot that will make me have a stroke, heart attack and seizure all at once.ā Because thatās absurdā¦ Literally just my brain inventing random stuff. Whatās the basis for this? My hand is a bit sore and my shoulder hurtsā¦ I have shoulder instability and it hurts quite often.
Just wanted to rant about my stupid electric cholesterol and its flights of fancy. Why canāt it use that creative thinking to write a book or something?
Didnāt feel it warranted a thread of its own.
Edit: In slightly funnier news. The nurse practitioner at work is always interested in what Iām doing to myself (I play around with supplements, like trying to force my curly hair genes to express because I had curly hair as a kid.). She thought the blinky was super cool and one of the other NPs was like āhow do you take it out?ā When I said itād have to be cut out the interested NP offered to do it if I ever needed it soā¦ Partner in stabbing me? Yay.
Itās quite common for people involved in a car accident to get PTSD from it. Seek some counseling if you think you need it. Heck, even if you think you donāt it might be beneficial anyways.
Speaking of RFID locks, recently Iāve installed several of them in a Hotel, maybe I should post about it.
I couldnāt try them with my Next chip cause I havenāt installed it yet, BUT they support ISO 14443 fixed UID cards, DESFire cards (they actually load an app on the card when enrolling it), and the readers light the DT keychain brightly, so I have the suspicion they might work with glass implants
Years ago, I bought my first house. There was a stump sticking up in the back yard that made mowing difficult, so I got a shovel and dug it up. Then I just kept going. After a bit, Iāve got a big pile of dirt and a fair sized hole. When people would ask what I dug the hole for, Iād just smile and say, ābecause I couldā.
Technically itās defining an app IDā¦ kinda like defining an NDEF record on a standard NFC chip. Itās not code being loaded to the desfire chip itās just a file being created and given a specific application ID (aid). Critical difference between that and loading code.
The only reason Iām pointing it out is I just had this conversation with someone else about how desfire works.
I think that this is relevant to some of the stuff Iāve seen in a few online communities that have ideas that are related to what weāre doing here.
Donāt fall for undue influence, fellow cyborgs.
Probably some of the people from the crazy thread could benefit as well.
You are absolutely correct, I am from Norway.
and as a Norwegian I must admit Iām a bit sceptical of meetups.
As you can see from this scientific image, we tend to keep a perfectly normal distance to eachother. - A UK invasion though? we tend to be closer to the Finns
Third anniversary badge obtained Crazy to think that itās almost been two years since I got my implants, and over four years since I first made my accountā¦
I might not be posting as much lately, but I still try and stay up to date on everything (this thread in particular).
Iāve rapidly learned this year that walking is probably the only thing thatās kept me alive to this point. It really does do something to just go walk somewhere, with nothing but your mind + some music or a podcast to keep you company.
Iāve been walking way more thanks to recent stress/other issues, and if I happen to go more than two days without a recreational walk, I get in such a shit mood. Earlier today I was really rough, so I just got back from a 9 mile walk. Feel a lot better now. Hope it continues to help you as well.
Weirdly, comedy and sarcasm/pessimism/cynicism keeps me goingā¦
Being able to turn anything into a joke, especially my life is my dark superpower
I am starting to try to get back in the gym, after my wedding I told myself Iād take a week or 2 to relax, itās now been like 5 months and Iāve gained probably all the weight I lost back, and lost muscles I gained
Back to the beginning I guess
Iām currently bubbly about the house, which makes tots sense, but Iām so conditioned to wait for life to sucker punch me anytime I get excitedā¦ not dark at all
Bad news, because I work at a jail, I have to sleep over at work for the duration of the storm to ensure we are staffed and that the inmates donāt go haywire.
Power is a luxury, but at least Iām getting paid for every minute Iām here.
Crazy to think that itās almost been two years since I got my implants, and over four years since I first made my accountā¦